Decrescendo! (Photos To Be Uploaded Tomorrow)

It’s spirits whirling down to an abyssmal pit. Anyways, before I went back to my station I took a dump and thought of a good joke: "I’ll go out of your system in a sudden and big way! — FART" I know it’s lame but I thank the MAN who gave me my sense of humour. It’s my mask and defense. I can’t succomb to my in-job worries. BTW I’m still here. That’s good right? 

I’ve been served with write ups for a cornucopia of "violations" so much that ya’ll cant blame me to cringe at the slightest hint that I’ve been caught by BigBoss pink-handed. Yesterday was a day of discovery.

I went to the bank to withdraw some cash. I was supposed to go to SSS but scratched it off because I was so prepped to try JOB INTERVIEWS again! After 3 years I’m looking for a new job. Y’all are asking: "Why apply you still have your job, right?" A memo would mean that you stay with the department. That’s a sweet term for career-growth blockade. One year without promotion. I’ve been sitting on my swivel and tapping away in my IBM keyboard for three goddamn years. Not that I’m blaming other people for my memos, though there are some who delibearately did me, what I’m saying is that when you pull your cabinet one day and see your pile of write-ups, you can’t help but ask after all the conscious effort to rid all of your bad habits: "Maybe I’m not really meant to stay here."

I went to Philcoa along Commonwealth Avenue. Right accross the Univesity of the Philippines Diliman Campus is  a string of big 5 storey buildings. Thizizit! I went up to the receptionist and gave her my resume. I told her that I’d like to apply for the TEAM MANAGER post. She said that my resume will go through review and will take longer processing time than the regular walk-ins that apply for entry-level posts. I told her that I’ll wait. She asked where’s my photo on my resume. I told her that I will apply personally so I think there’s no need for a photo when I’m standing face to face with the interviewer. He won’t go like: "(after bouncing his sight from my resume photo and my actual face) YOU LOOK BETTER THEN. What happened. Can you tell me?"

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First Quarter Of 2008: In Review

I dunno but whoever told me that 2008 will be a good year for me should get their inards pulled out and dried, then served to Chinese Tibetan haters. The first quarter was a blizzard of pitfalls and no success at all.

I celebrated my birthday while I’m battling with heartache and a then not known disease that’s making me look like Olive Oil. I knew then that I cant put my finger on diet as the reason why im getting skinny. I battled mood swings brought by the mental and physical stress. Also after January I started to believe that my tooth fairy snatched my 13th month bonus while I was sleeping because I dont know where it landed. I started missing my credit card bill due dates, and my mother, as if she’s the one paying, had made it a point to include her reminding me of my bills a part of my late night smoking habit.

After I was diagnosed with hyperthyroidism. My boss allowed to work on morning shifts. The catch is they won’t allow me to join any extra-office clubs. So I quit the company’s events group and chorale. Which made me all the more depressed.

Our first technical bonus came. I was so excited to withdraw, I got off the train. I LOST MY ATM. Questions raced in my mind. Where could it be? Did I lost it in the train. Did some crook snatched it off my pocket. I called the bank to have it blocked immediately coz it was a debit card and anyone who knows what a debit card is for can just swipe it like hell. So it was blocked already with the current balance untouched, I let out a sigh of relief. I just need to get a replacement card from the bank. I reached my back pocket for my facial wash. SWEET AS CANDY COCK SUCKER! It was there! My ATM wasn’t lost. I called the bank to have it unblocked. The banker said that they dont do temporary unblocking. I’m a miserable looney bin resident.

Just a week ago at my girlfriend Yvorry’s bday. Another friend was there. I just dropped at the bar for an hour coz I still have work. But this friend was supposed to be in the office at 1pm. She stayed there until 12:50ish. Big boss was there and she asked this friend why she’s still there dont she have shift later. That friend quaintly said yes. That friend called me and asked me to log her in. Inspite of all the danger that I’m aware of at that time, I logged her in. After a few days Roel asked me If I know who logged that friend of mine coz apparently BigBoss checked the logins, coz she knew that my friend would be late, and that BigBoss is on a mad headhunt who did it. I squealed, but I dont have any choice you know. That friend’s being written up and so am I. And for a time it felt like that friend was nonchalant to the effect of the writeup. At the back of my mind I was screaming: I CANT LOSE MY JOB BITCH! I called BigBoss and told her just that. She said that she’s having a hard time to write me up given the myriads that I had since the first months I landed in her kingdom. What she said was a consolation. Although those words will still be words unless written in black and white. I updated my curriculum vitae just in case.

The first quarter of 2008 was a Katrina of emotions and jinx for me. Like what Ne-Yo said : I’m too fly to be depressed.

I Hate Web Administrators

I had a what I thought was a properly logical argument with the web admin of www.peyupi.com. Im running a daily thread forum there, called Let’s Say by Kamlon. It’s been a while since I last dropped by at that site. I found a message from him. He went something like: Hey you’ve made yourself very famous here. Just a suggestion can you make the title of your thread a little shorter. I replied agreeing to his rule. I posted a new one. I aptly titled it : Let’s Say by Kamlon April 18. I received a message from him again. He said: You didnt do what I said. Alright website god! I asked him to give me his suggested title format. He said I can just look around at all the other member’s posting.

At that point I know that he’s up to something bigger than correcting my post’s titles. I sent him my last reply to his littany. I said: I hope that you understand that my Let’s Say postings are hypothetical scenarios. So, if you want my titles to be succinct and clear you’re indirectly asking me to put the whole scenarion with "Let’s Say". Can your Subject field accomodate that length. At any rate that would look funny, yet that’s what your asking right? Clarity and shortness. I hope that we continue this communication with OBJECTIVITY IN MIND!

I got a call from my girlfriend Jeff. She asked why am I not in the site. Did I cancel my account. NO. Hell no! It’s the dubious works of the illogical scumabag sicko web admin named RENNETH. Man your name’s ugly BTW. I got a call too from Jeff so I recounted to her what’s conspired between and that douche bag. I knew then that I was booted off the site. This is what I saw when I "attempted" to login today:

My friend Third today over IM asked me what’s happened. If there’s anything I’m getting out of this is more attention and fame. PEOPLE ARE ASKING FOR ME RENNETH NOT YOU!

Third told me that the scumbag is saying that he’s worked alot in creating the site. Well lemme tell you. That scumbag went to www.ning.com and created the site. I created 2 sites, for our company’s chorale and for our team here in the office. And I tell you, in both sites, I finished creating them in less than 5 minutes.

To Renneth, you just showed how feeble and illogical your people-skill is. FUCK OFF MY FACE. I may be a counter puncher but I fight back big time!

El Dorado Polygamyst "cult" Seized By CPS

Larry King interviewed distressed mothers of children held in custody by CPS. The women in the interview are members of a polygamyst cult in El Dorado, TX. I remember Larry asking the 3 women one question — Where’s your child’s father? To this all 3 women kept mum and just said that their main interest at the moment is reuniting with their kids. I dont dig polygamy. Exactly what goes into the lives of those women and exactly what the fuck is that religion?

Basically the concerned 416 children live in YFZ (Yearning For Zion) ranch in El Dorado. The cult there is considered a break away group of the LDS. They practice polygamy. Polygamy allows a man to marry multiple wives. Raids were planned after CPS learned that there are girls as young as 13 years old who are being brainwashed to marriage. This is child abuse and at the get-go polygamy is illegal in Texas. The members and leader of this sick movement faces serious jail time for commiting and corroborating in the act of child abuse. The mother’s of the taken children have been through countless interviews, they want their kids back.

Top Photo: YFZ Ranch, El Dorado, TX

I just wonder why its only now that this polygamist cults came into the open when in fact I remember reading a Larry King Live transcript about it years ago. Here’s a part of his interview of one of the cult’s escapees. (more…)

Pay It Forward, American Idol Style

OMG! The American Idol Gives Back 2008 was so starfull. A-list everywhere. Brad Pitt without An-Jo, The Beckhams, Bono and Annie Lennox. I enjoyed the opening number, all the idols singing Please Dont Stop The Music. I was brought to tears (yes I cry… alot) when they showed Annie Lennoxes visit to Africa. She met a group of kids, the eldest 15 years old with three other younger siblings, whose father and mother died from AIDS. I cant forget how she sobbed helplessly when she left the children.

Hannah Montana was there, and I wonder why til this second. Mariah Carey looked fantastic. She lost a ton of weight. She’s looking more like the photoshopped images of her in her albums. She sang fly like a bird. She sounded like she was singing from a cave. She wouldve sounded better if he sang with a normal mic. Nevertheless, she was ayt.  

I dont know if it’s just me but I think that Paula’s getting more ancient by day. Poor lady. But I like her. Out of all the three judges she’s the most balanced when commenting on perfs. She’d say if it’s bad if it really sucked, but in a sweet way.

The highlight, for me, of the night was when Robin Williams did a comic. He was supposed to be the first Russian Idol. He sang MY WAY or something. At one point his character praised AI for doing  a 2 week Beatles Tribute. He said he too loves  Lennon (le-nen), and that in Russian Idol they also have a Stalin week. It’s good to see Robin back in the scene.

The Idol’s top 8 sang Seasons Of Love and Shout To The Lord. Great as always!

All in all the show was a sure heart-softener. Let’s save Africa. Lets save Tibet. Let’s save the World. Call 877-IDOL AID (877-436-5243) or log on to www.idolaid.com